I Have No Choice


I have no choice

I have been at  Peddie for  more than two months. Time passed so fast. I thought I got accustomed with the life here. Though I missed my family, but nowadays we have internet and telephone to talk and see each other.

People always show their kindness to the person who left home. They will try their best to help her because she must miss of her home dishes.

They were very kind to take me to Chinatown, we ate Chinese food and celebrated Chinese New Year there. I never missed Chinese food before this meal. When I came back, I made a bowl of frozen wonton for myself that night.

One  Sunday, the language department needed prepare for the International Food Fair.  Some of the faculty took the students to Asian food supermarket. They were very kind to take me with them. It is my first time  there; quite different from Target and Shoprite. It is smaller and narrower. The products there seemed old, some of them even covered with dust. Like a supermarket in countryside China from past, I think. It’s neither  modern nor trendy. But at the end, I spent a lot of money there.  Actually, I didn’t eat the food I bought when I was in Shanghai frequently.  And they are expensive here too.

 But I have no choice. I missed the shepherd's purse wontons, I missed the yellow croaker noodles, I missed YuXin restaurant, all these names just jumped into my head at that moment, so I have no choice.





有一种病叫思乡

离开家已经两个多月了,其实也是一晃而过的。我一直以为自己应该适应得挺好的,虽然会挂念家人,但好在有网络、有电话,横跨太平洋两端依然创造彼此的声音和画面。

对于离乡背井之人,人往往心存怜悯。他们很好,会问我,想不想吃中国菜,还会尽力为我创造机会接触中国菜。中国新年的上午,我参加了学校的庆祝活动去纽约的唐人街吃中餐。这一顿吃出了我对于中餐的怀念了,在上海,随便哪个小店的味道也比这好啊。我当晚就回住处给自己下了碗速冻馄饨,泪流满面。

系里曾经有个国际食品节的活动,于是我跟蒋老师、Adriana带学生去美东(这里的亚洲超市)采购。我第一次去那个地方,和之前所去过的TargetShoprite完全不一样,它的空间感很局促,完全没有美帝超市那种特有的宽敞明亮感,里面的东西也是看上去旧旧的,有的甚至还蒙了一层灰,就像中国城乡结合部的那种感觉。就这么一家破破的超市,却害得我去买了一堆在上海都不怎么吃的速冻食品,鱼丸、花枝丸、馄饨、饺子、年糕,甚至还有一小把菠菜,一小瓶蘸料。介于之前对于美帝超市物价的认知,这个不那么美好的美东超市的这些东西的价格真不美好。

但是,我想吃荠菜馄饨,我想黄鱼面,我想渝信,那些我以为我不想念的一个一个鱼贯而出,我别无选择。






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